You make me happy. Not to the point where I rely on your for my happiness. Before I met you I finally made peace with myself and decided to love myself and maybe that’s why the universe finally let you fall into my life, whereas before I spent so much effort searching because I desperately needed somebody to love me. But you make me happy because you help me see the light in me and make me want to be a better person. And getting the chance to make you happy is the best part of my day every day.
P.S. I miss you.
I keep going back and forth with being pescetarian.
The reason why I gave up meat was mostly health reasons. I don’t like added hormones and chemicals and stuff, but then my friend pointed out a valid point that they add a lot of things to fish as well. But they don’t add growth hormones which is my #1 no no. But I don’t ever want to give up seafood I love it. Also I just don’t really have a taste for meat anymore. Yeah lamb every now and again sounds appealing, but things like chicken and pork it’s like, eh. I also really love plants and eating vegetarian was something that just evolved naturally. As I ate more and more plants I desired meat less. I also don’t really need meat in my diet anymore. I get more than enough protein from elsewhere.
But I hate being labelled a vegetarian or pescetarian. And I hate explaining myself to other people. I could just lie and say: animal rights, but that really isn’t the true reason why I don’t eat meat. I don’t really have a definite answer and my indefinite motives make me question whether or not I should be a vegetarian.
My boyfriend isn’t vegetarian and I know he’d love to cook with me and have me be able to actually try his foods. If I gave up the pescetarian thing, I probably still would only eat meat on occasions.
I wish I never would’ve told people, for the first few months nobody knew and I was fine with it.
I also just don’t like the carnivore mentality that every meal has to be centered around meat. News flash: in Italy, they don’t mix their primi/carbs with their secondi/meats. Chicken in pasta is a no no. Also I don’t think carnivore will ever know how much more delicious an avocado-sriracha-grilled-cheese is than a turkey club sandwich.
Should I stay pescetarian, should I just say I don’t eat meat everyday and only do it on occasions, should I give it up all together?